After I finished my rehearsal for the upcoming theater show, I went straight to library. Today I have another lunch date with my chibi best friend. She told me to wait for her in front of the library again. I wonder if she’s gonna be on time today.
While waiting for her, I decided to take a walk around the small garden, next to library. I looked around and I could see no one in the garden at all. I guess since its lunch time now, people went to grab their lunch before the class start. A smile formed on my lips as I looked at the sheer amount of flowers in bloom around the garden.
“So beautiful~~” I said as I bent down towards a flower and hold it in my hand.
“The most beautiful of all flowers is the one that has grown in the sunshine of your smile, do you know that??” suddenly I heard a familiar voice from behind me.
I turn around and to found that she was smiling sweetly at me whilst wearing her white coat.
“What did you just say??” I asked as I hadn't been paying any attention to what she was saying before.
Her smile grew wider and she took a step forward, closer to me “I said.. The most beautiful of all flowers is… the one that has grown in the sunshine of your smile..” she repeated.
With just hearing that, at once my heart began to flutter nonstop for a few seconds and then went into extra beats or skipped beats several times.
Why is that she always making my heart beating like this? I don’t understand.. Is it normal to have this kind of feeling toward your best friend? I mean, we knew each other since high school and lately I had noticed that my heart always beating irregularly when she was around me.. Every single thing she does, just take my breath away.. What is happening to me??
“Atsuko..” her voice snapped me out of my trance.
“I know I looked good in this white coat.. Are you falling for me or something??" she said teasingly.
"O-Oh.. W-What??” I stutters.
"You were staring at me..” she narrowed her eyes, smirking at me.
“No I was not!!” I denied.
“Yes you were!!" she said, grinning widely. "Hurm.." she raised a suspicious eyebrow. "You said that I always staring at you when you’re not looking.. But the truth is, it was the other way around, doesn’t it??”
“No!! Of course not!! You’re just imagining things!!” I could feel my face heating up from the irregular heart beat.
“Just admit it!! You already falling for me didn’t you??” she asked, snickering.
I don’t know why, but my heart almost leaps out of my chest when she asked me that. My heart was beating rapidly, pumping my blood all over me twice as fast as normal.
Why am I feeling so scared right now, like I had been found out? I didn’t do anything wrong.. And had I fallen for her?? That was impossible, we both are girls.. And how in the world two girls can like each other more than just friends.. Or can they??
“No!! I’m not you midget!!” I said in almost shout as my face was all red right now.
“Why not??” she asked, laughing.
“There’s no way I’m falling for you.. You’re a girl and how can I fall for a girl, especially a midget one like you..” I said clearly to her before facing away, crossing my arms.
For who knows what reason, she suddenly stops laughing and a heavy feeling was weighted on my shoulder. Even though my heart beats were gradually decreased, I still can feel it thumping hard against my chest.
Then there was silence between us. Slowly, I turn my gaze back at her and she was looking down to the ground, not making any sound.
Have I said something wrong to her? I mean, she suddenly stop laughing and.. and.. What have I done..
“Minami..” I called out to her, but she didn't give any response. So, I nervously walk closer and stood in front of her. “Minami??” I said her name again, but still not getting any response. “Did I say something wrong??” I asked, but she keeps looking down, ignoring my question.
Now the heavy feeling really hits on me! I felt my heart pace quicken again and I started to panic when she was not giving any response to me. I start to get scared out of my mind. I’m actually scared of hurting her feeling. Even though I keeps saying harsh thing to her, I always end up regretted for saying it. But I just can’t help myself when she always playing tricks on me.
I take a deep breath and exhale before trying to talk to her again. “Minami.. I’m sorry..” and again she just stood there, like she didn’t hear me, motionless. She must be mad at me. Now I really hate myself for saying those things to her. Why can’t I just keep my mouth shut!
Taking hold of her hand, I squeezed it lightly as I could feel the tears slowly forming in my eyes. Ready to leak and spill the guilt out of me. So I blinked a couple of times trying to hold myself from crying.
“Minami.. Please say something..” I shook her arm a few times. “Are you mad at me?? I’m sorry..” I felt a tear roll down my cheek. “Minami.. Please..” I could hear my voice sounds weak and broken.
“Gah!!! Gotcha!!” she said loudly as she looked up to me before start laughing.
“Minami??” for a moment I somewhat lost track of what happened.
“Hahaha.. Take that!! I bet you feel sorry for saying those thing to me..” she then continue to laugh, covering her mouth.
Feeling slightly of relief that she was not really mad at me, I'm the one who was getting really mad now looking at her laughing her tears out. How could she play a trick on me with this kind of thing? I thought she was really mad at me for what I said to her. But she just..
“Minami!!! How could you!!!” I yelled at her.
“You’re just easy to play trick on..” she was still laughing, so I hit her in the arm. “Ah!! I’m just kidding okay..” she said defending herself.
“How could you..” tears spill down on my cheeks as I can’t hold them back anymore. I was so scared and mad at the same time. I just hate her for doing that.
She stopped laughing when she realized that I was crying. “Atsuko??”
“I hate you..” I hit her arm again.
“Ah! Ah! Ah!” she just let me hit her, not even trying to stops me.
I only stop hitting her when I saw the same guilty expression; she’s giving me every time I was mad at her for pulling a prank on me.
“I’m sorry.. I didn’t know that you were taking it seriously.. I was just..” she let the sentence hang in the air.
“I thought you were mad at me..” I said sobbing through my tears.
“Gomen ne..” she gently wiped my tears.
“A-And.. And I thought you’re not going to talk to me anymore..”I said sniffling and sobbing.
“I will never do that to you.. I’m really sorry okay..”
“Don’t ever do that to me again..” I said pouting.
“I won’t.. I promise..” she caress my cold cheek gently and it felt warmer in her palm. Somehow I really like this feeling. So warm and calming.
Hastily wiping away the tears that had darted across my cheek with my sleeve, I put my arms around her and hold her close. She was surprise at first, but then I heard her chuckled before wrapped her arms around me. She nuzzles her soft cheek against mine causing my heart to sped up again and I began to feel the butterflies forming in my stomach.
After we pulled away, she asked, “So, can I see the most beautiful flower again??”
“Hmm??” I tilted my head in question. “Flower??”
“Your smile..” she said giving me her own warm smile, making me blush slightly.
“Mou~~ Minami!!” I said looking away, trying to hide my blushing face.
“Come on.. Let’s get our lunch.. I’m starving..” she took my hand in hers and intertwining our fingers together.
I can't completely describe it why, but I swear I could feel electricity running along our intertwined fingers and I couldn’t help but let a small smile take over my face.
Without a word, you made me know what love is..
Without a word, you gave me your love..
Made me fill myself with your every breath..
- End of Part 2 -